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A desk. Full of papers and drawings. And one sheet, a large one, stained, inked in red. Love me. I know I'm not perfect, but please just accept me. Save me. I don't want to be here anymore. Reach out for my hand, can't you hear my screams? I'm drowning. I hate myself. If you love me then let go of me. I can't take it anymore, it's everywhere, I still see them. They haunt me. I'm sick of feeling numb. They want me to die. No one knows how much it hurts not to feel. Erase me. Afraid to sleep, afraid to dream I can't SCREAM! I've nothing left. ... And so much more, all written down, one by one on that sheet of paper. The feelings of a yo

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Eyes like razors in my back, judging what they see Brains, thinking everything has to go your way Tongue, telling me, ordering me, to do it how they want me to do it Ears that don't even listen to the opinion of someone else Hands, hurting me, wherever they can Words, revealing all of my darkest secrets to the world. Judging, huring, looking down on me, killing me... "Forgive me" I say... "I just can't believe I once called you 'Friend'" I whisper

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Memories Prologue

Memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY-MAN OR ANY OF IT CHARACTERS! IT ALL BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! prologue The young samurai stormed forward, towards the akuma. The fight between the exorcists and the Noahs had lasted for almost eight hours and the exorcists were all tired and wounded. The white haired boy, of which Kanda refused to memorize the name, flied across the field and landed on his back. 'Oi! Moyashi! Get up! This is no time to go rest!' Kanda snapped. 'The name's Allen, Ba-Kanda!' 'I don't mind what's your name! Just stand up and fight!' Allen tried to stand but his legs were weak and he felt back on the ground.

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Memories Chapter I

Memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY MAN OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS! D. GRAY-MAN BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! Chapter I Everything was white. He tried to remember what happened. He got hit by that Noah, just after that Moyashi lost control over that Neah-guy. The samurai didn't know where he was, but if felt strange familiar to him. Like he had been there before. It was a weird feeling and it was irritating him. 'Where the fucking hell am I?' No one answered. Kanda grabbed his katana and tried to remember why he knew this place. While walking, he remarked that his footsteps didn't made any noise. Everything was silent, silent an

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Memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY MAN OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS! D. GRAY-MAN BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! Chapter II The movie stopped. The handsome, young man was back in that damned, white nothing. But now, there were sparkles flying everywhere. 'What the heck…' Was this all his imagination? Was this all just a dream? A voice was coming from heaven. 'Kanda? Kanda! Wake up, you stupid retard!' It was a woman's voice. No… No! He wanted to stay in that place! Peaceful! Free… not bound by rules, church or Innocence. 'Let me stay…' He whispered just before he collapsed. When he opened his eyes again, he

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Memories Chapter III

Memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY MAN OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS! D. GRAY-MAN BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! Chapter III Again. He was back. Again. Damned white world. The sparkles were all gone. But the floor was covered in lotus flowers. There was no noise, no movie playing. Everything was silent and calm. He liked it. This was a place where no on could disturb him. Only he could come here. Breathing was easier than before. It seemed like there was more oxygen in the air. 'Why does it feel so nice?' It felt like he could be living here forever. It was just like dreaming or sleeping. It was not real. 'Why is my mind

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Memories Chapter IV

Memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY MAN OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS! D. GRAY-MAN BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! Chapter IV 'Mana!' the teens whole body was trembling and shaking. Blood filled his mouth when he tried to scream. 'Komui! Reever! Something's very wrong with the sprout!' The samurai knocked off his sheets and ignored the pain trying to stand was causing. 'Keep it up Baka Moyashi! You're not that freak! Fight! Goddamned beansprout! I know you'll win!' The young man sank through his legs. Suddenly, Reever was behind him and helped him back in bed. 'Reever! Let the fuck go of me! Take care of Moyashi!' Lenalee also ran in

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memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY MAN OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS! D. GRAY-MAN BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! Chapter V He couldn't stand, this was the first time that happened. No matter how much he was wounded before, he was always healed when he came here, but now he wasn't. His legs were paralysed. 'What is this? Why can't I move?' His voice sounded weird, like he just stopped crying, suffocated in tears. But he didn't cry. He did never cry. Tsch. There were blossoms everywhere. When he was a little child, there was only one, but he had grown and also the number of flowers did. Within the distance of ten meters, a flower bur

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Memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY MAN OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS! D. GRAY-MAN BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! Chapter VI He woke up with a bright smile on his face. No sadistic I-am-gonna-kill-you- smile, but a really warm and cute smile. He remarked Reever standing in the doorway and his face became cold and emotionless again. 'Oh, I'm sorry. Did I wake you up?' 'No, I woke up by myself.' 'I've come to refresh your bandages. Why did you smile?' 'I wasn't smiling.' 'I saw it, Kanda, you were smiling. I'm sure of it.' 'I had a bad dream.' Kanda sighed. 'Then, why were you smiling?' 'Because I wish it'd truly happen.' 'What w

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Memories Extra Story: Allen Walker

Memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY MAN OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS! D. GRAY-MAN BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! Extra Story: Mirror reflection WARNING! YOU'RE ABOUT TO READ A STORY WITH A NEALLEN-PAIRING! *2 weeks before current time 'Memories Prologue'. Allen was standing in his room. The mirror on his wall was reflecting the sunlight streaming through the open window. He had opened it because there was not enough oxygen in the room. Until some minutes ago, he had been leaning out of the window for half an hour, thinking about his previous mission, he had enjoyed the awesome view he had from his room. But now he had an

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Memories Chapter VII

Memories ATTENTION! I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY MAN OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS! D. GRAY-MAN BELONGS TO HOSHINO KATSURA! Chapter VII No! No! Moyashi! No! The samurai tried to scream but there was no sound coming out of his throat. Those stupid sedatives began to work! He almost couldn't open his eyes again. No! This was no time to… just a few minutes…he would go to sleep for just a few minu… He let the sleepiness take his body over. 'LET. ME. OUT!' He groaned, full awaken in his with lotus flowers filled brain. 'Goddamned!' At least, he could move again, that was better than being paralyzed. He decided to let another me

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Artist // Hobbyist // Traditional Art

Apr 26, 1996

Belgium
Deviant for 13 years
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NYU? x3

hii there,

I thought it was about time to write some new stuff here...
and guess what, I still don't know what :p

at this moment, I'm writing for Yullen-week, and 3 fanfics at the same time...
on top of that, my pc crashed so I had to buy a new one, and my scanner doesn't work on that goddamned thing...
so no more drawings...
just kidding :D I'll find a way to upload them, just be patient ;)

I take requests... (I doubt anyone will ever ask me... :p)

that was is,
fav and comment all the way around, tell me what I can do better and so on
thanks for taking time to read this ;)

Favourite Movies

Death note, the conqueror of Shamballa

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D. gray-man, kuroshitsuji (2), full metal alchemist (brotherhood), pandora hearts, ao no exorcist, no. 6, death note

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

whitin temptation, 2ne1, valshe, the gazette, Evanescence

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everything about supernatural

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s4 league

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mafxkurofreakjex

Jun 21, 2013

Good God... How long have I been gone? o.O

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hii guys, I'm sorry, I know I've been gone for quite some time Anyway, here's a list of what I'm going to do in the next two months: -Finishing a request for ~Zolk (https://www.deviantart.com/zolk) -Finishing a Naruto-poster I'm working on atm -Starting to write a DGM fanfic which kinda flows together with :iconLordPeachy:'s Mystery of a History -Finishing my book I'm writing in Dutch and publish it :s *glomps* -Do another Lucy Cosplay -Do an Angel Cosplay Anyone else who wants me to do something? Luv you all :heart:

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mafxkurofreakjex

Apr 1, 2013

I quit

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Not really like I'll stop drawing things, but I quit doing the request thing I started. The ones on my list I still have to finish will be done as soon as possible, but I'll not take on new ones anymore. maybe in the summer holidays I'll do it again :p Anyways, happy Easter everyone! Have fun! :heart:

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mafxkurofreakjex

Jan 30, 2013

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!

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Thank you so much everyone! I had more than 80 feedback messages on my latest two deviations: * .:Forget everything...for once:. * .:Forget everything...for once:..:colored:. And I had 6 new wachters! thank you! ~alpha-Ikaros (https://www.deviantart.com/alpha-ikaros) :iconBlueFiresoul: :iconAnikoNeko: :iconAlyssaFoxAH: :iconPsryenandBleach: :iconGFORCELEVEL1988: this means so much to me! you guys have no idea! :heart: The requests asked for will be finished in the order the new watchers are listed ^^ I wanted to come to all of your pages to thank you personaly, but that would take hours (time I can spend finishing requests ) so I did it this way, hope you guys ca