FlashbackYou told me not to look backFlashback by ~mafxkurofreakjex
But lately, you make me
Because the way you act,
makes me feel
like I don't want to
Lost and GoneDear (You know who you are)Lost and Gone by ~mafxkurofreakjex
It’s been a year now, exactly a year since we kissed goodbye. To me, honestly, it’s been a tough year. I had to face a lot of things, and without you there to calm me down, they were even harder. I have to admit that I miss you. I’ve been craving for you so many times, but it’s better to never meet each other again, right? It’s better for me that is. Because the scars you left heal slowly, but they will never completely fade. That scares me. A part of you will always stay with me, somehow. You are an indelible part of my past, no matter how much I wish you weren’t, we were friends way to long, you nearly made me kill myself. Despite everything, you were always there for me, during the day, but also when I felt like crying at night, you would be there to comfort me. You forced me into a world that was the illusion of happiness. An escape from reality. Just something, to forget what was going on, giving me something to look
The deskA desk.The desk by ~mafxkurofreakjex
Full of papers and drawings.
And one sheet, a large one, stained, inked in red.
I know I'm not perfect, but please just accept me.
I don't want to be here anymore.
Reach out for my hand, can't you hear my screams?
I hate myself.
If you love me then let go of me.
I can't take it anymore, it's everywhere, I still see them. They haunt me.
I'm sick of feeling numb.
They want me to die.
No one knows how much it hurts not to feel.
Afraid to sleep, afraid to dream
I can't SCREAM!
I've nothing left.
And so much more, all written down, one by one on that sheet of paper.
The feelings of a young person.
Male or female doesn't matter.
Broken is broken.
And there's no one there to repair them.
And guess what?
The desk is mine
The drawings are mine
And so are the words