FlashbackYou told me not to look backFlashback by mafxkurofreakjex
But lately, you make me
Because the way you act,
makes me feel
like I don't want to
Lost and GoneDear (You know who you are)Lost and Gone by mafxkurofreakjex
It’s been a year now, exactly a year since we kissed goodbye. To me, honestly, it’s been a tough year. I had to face a lot of things, and without you there to calm me down, they were even harder. I have to admit that I miss you. I’ve been craving for you so many times, but it’s better to never meet each other again, right? It’s better for me that is. Because the scars you left heal slowly, but they will never completely fade. That scares me. A part of you will always stay with me, somehow. You are an indelible part of my past, no matter how much I wish you weren’t, we were friends way to long, you nearly made me kill myself. Despite everything, you were always there for me, during the day, but also when I felt like crying at night, you would be there to comfort me. You forced me into a world that was the illusion of happiness. An escape from reality. Just something, to forget what was going on, giving me something to look
The Open WindowPlease, read the descriptionThe Open Window by LordPeachy
Crowley laid comfortable across an aubergine armchair, laptop resting on his hipbones, one leg swept over the other casually, his right foot gently tapping the air along the rhythm of his favourite song. He was waiting.
Every evening, he opened an online private chat-room. He'd log in as 'D' and every evening he'd wait patiently for his good friend 'L' to join him.
On the other side of the world, Elliott woke up, yawning and stretching his limbs. His blonde hair was a total mess. He reached for his laptop on the floor beside his bed with teal sheets.
He sat upright and made himself comfortable in the corner of his bed, resting his back against a wall, cross-legged. He put his laptop where it belonged; on his lap, he logged in on his favourite chat-room using the letter 'L' as his user name as he did every morning.
That is how it had always been. They both sat quietly in their room, illuminated
Traum, introHeb je ooit het gevoel dat je vastzit in een kringloop?Traum, intro by Tesbes
Eerst gaat alles goed, voor een tijd
En dan stort je wereld in mekaar
En deze kringloop blijft maar duren
En hij gaat steeds sneller en sneller
Tot je op een bepaald moment het gevoel hebt dat je vastzit in een cirkel van pijn en verdriet
De constante dreiging dat je leven in mekaar gaat storten, maar toch niet op willen geven
Of het geprobeerd hebben, maar zonder succes
Maar toch probeer je sterk te blijven en de pijn te overwinnen
Keer op keer hou je de wereld rondom je voor de gek
En niemand die het merkt
Dat de lach op je gezicht slechts een masker is
En achter dat masker zit een verloren ziel
Die zo diep in zichzelf is gekeerd, dat er mogelijk geen terugweg meer is
Die ondanks het constante gevoel van onbegrepen te zijn, steeds weer doet alsof alles goed gaat
En alles wat die ziel eigenlijk wilt, is begrepen worden